Note 64 : Be careful what you wish for

'Im the captain of the mud with mayhem society', there is also a  plan to setup a 'forum for treating compulsive parents', I'm the founder and we are passing a legislation for pets in all homes'

 Agnes said as we were having  our midnight conversation amidst the dark. These midnight discussions were a routine, the house had just voices amidst the dark and it felt that the night had company..

' Busy day haa' i interjected

'Mud and mayhem is ok and the pets idea is great, but compulsive parents hmmm , he is not compulsive Ag.. is he ?'

Thank you i said, in my head

'He can be arrogant, a little reckless, he thinks he's a mix of dumbledore and gandalf, when  angry he uses 'Crucio' to settle things'

'Ookkaayy..'

'.... , he lives in an alternate reality and talks to himself. But he's not compulsive. His unhealthy love for Batman set apart.. I think he's okay ...' added Lily

'Hmm' i said clearing my throat to tell them i was there.

'But di, the schedule for mattress covers...'

' so they all get worn out equally'

'The laundry schedule'

' so you don't run out of clothes'

'The bathroom cleaning schedule for Mavshi'

'So its clean guys'

'the schedule for your office clothes,  the time allocation for tv series ..what not'

' ok i give up... But no electric shocks ok......Haha' giggled Lily

I was evidently not supposed to have a say in this

'You must hear what Akruti's dad does Lil, I'll tell you'

' ok so I'm not supposed to know what ails other fathers. Why ? if i may ask'

' you may not' came the retort, Agnes

'You must look within paa' added Lily

Today, i believe was one of the (many) days where I'd have to give up and sleep.

The thought of this discussion happening in other homes gave me chills, I dreaded Akrutis dad either predicting my next office shirt or giving me a weird smile..

'Also di we have prepared a list of mental diseases our teachers might be suffering, we are although ,still experimenting'

I shifted uneasily

'And you were worried she was planning to poison them...see this is what she was planning..' Lily whispered

' you wanted them to do everything you couldn't' said one voice..'

'this is not what i meant'

'Be careful what you wish for' said an Agnes like voice.

Hdk

Note 63 : Wishes

'Make a wish' they said, together. 'Make a wish daddy, fasstt' added Agnes..

'And you have to close your eyes too'..sighed Lily..

Trying to follow these instructions, i simultaneously exhaled air and the candles extinguished.
This didn't make sense, blowing off the light from a piece of cream and then gulping off that very piece ..'like a savage pig' she used to say.. (Pigs are good people)

Earlier today, i had successfully completed another trip to the sun and in the process hadn't killed anyone.. These things are worth celebrating.. Right?

It doesn't matter if you agree or no, my kids did.

I crawled outside my being to meet an onslaught of love and affection. A conscious part of me, at-least what's left of it, was trying to make sure this doesn't become a habit. Habits are demons you carry on your back and in the quiet of the night they inject themselves into your souls, then they decide what you do, what you say, you don't want that, right?

Like this, right here, how they took over this Lily, Agnes note.

Anyways,  when i woke up in the morning there were elephants above my head. These elephants were balloon elephants, you could make the elephant less fat, but do they even care?

Mavshi had a hot cup of tea ready, there was food too today, i was tempted to say thank you. But she would retort and say, its only for today, i didn't have this conversation.  Should we have these scripted conversations, the one's we know how they are gonna end?

Few packages lay below my hagrid - big foot - ewoks replica. My pile of gifts. I took some-time to unwrap all of them. I sometimes need these gifts. They are carrots to the daily stick - sticky being. Shouldn't i just stop being?

Make a wish my sweet-hearts said. A wish is a dash of hope amidst all hopelessness, an impossibility, a smiling icicle in front of the sun.

I closed eyes, wished and then quietly crawled back inside..

These wishes are the end of me.

Hdk