Sunday, 24 August 2014

Note 41 : Breathing

The place had no power..but there was a lot rain. “wet rain Daddy” Ag said – correcting me…you would have to be brave enough to ask her what the difference was, I wasn't .
India`s northeast was where we were, the place had a dampness of its own. The green moss which crawls over the stones, road edges and moist walls – slowly somehow crept into your heart and made its home – they wouldn`t mind even if you were bone dry, they just want some place – to house in and call it home. Wild pines creep over the poles – wrapping the iron with love. Small puddles made houses in the bazaar road – tiny fishes joyfully jumped in – the muddy camouflage being made full use of. Among them there was a group of mosquitoes who plotted a disease.
The house we had rented – did not have a power generator – and was ancient, the power tripped at the slightest hint of rain and this was one such day.  When there was no light, the house had more people – we called them shadows. The natural light was partial to the part of the house which had no walls – rest was darkness coupled with more dampness. Oxygen had a flavor around these parts and the aroma was mesmerizing – the place wanted us to breathe for the smell of ground was the fragrance of life.
“Papa wen the I look up though the bathroom vent, I see god, I see why they say let there be light – coz one ray steals the glory of the dark – whereas darkness needs its entirety to be complete.” Lil said
“Yes my dear, but isn`t light the perception of you God – because you want to escape the darkness – isn’t that the sole idea of god….”
“to find us things we cant get for ourselves” she interrupted
“If there is a god, I bet he is a bully and a sadist – judging by his powers and is egoist as he needs to be praised all the time to do his job” Agnes this was..
There was a dull cloud crackle and a sound of thunder.
Ag moved back to the shrubs that had grown right outside our ancient house – cause she felt the frogs thought thunder was music and would come out to dance..”..and i`ll dance with them too”

Lil took her chair and glasses and poured over a Dante book – “the divine comedy” it was.


They both had found their gods which would take care of them – the wisdom of nature and the company of great men –

Why would I say the place had no power, the place was full of energy – the one that`s not too strong, not too bright – but the one that would get your feet moving to music, the one which will happily put you to sound – snory sleep..
Hdk

Friday, 22 August 2014

Note 40 : Lights

Those lil fingers grabbed my hand...

As he wrapped them around mine...

Looked at me and gave that wondrous smile..it's then that u realize..that u have to live for people that love u unconditionally..unbound by any pretense any misjudgment...

And u have to live for people who have r happie to see u..happy to make u happy.. And believe in the person that is u...



A 2 year old kid taught me this lesson..as he went to sleep with a smile on his face..holding the mans hand whom he looked up to and being there for him wen he needed him d most..

 As he continues to smile even when he dreams..he asks me to b around wen he's back from school tomorrow and I say yes and the smile broadens as I kiss his forehead and off to bed he is.

People who believe in you, empower you - make you achieve and strive for the impossible. Light up the way ahead !!

I have a lot to learn from him. My ladder to the sun .

Hdk

Wednesday, 13 August 2014

Note 39 : Hippies

"you dont have to raise them like hippies..vagabonds..
Why raise them as your mirror.. Get them into civilization" my aunt proclaimed..

"why?" I asked..

"I let them choose their dreams..their life.. For I want them to be like the wild flower..not something they build in a laboratory.. I dont want uniformity in their thots..I want them to go with the flow..and I dont want them to be bound by the definition of this world..fall in a life cycle..which they call.. They will be what they are and not what the world wants them to be.."

She shrugged off..

"it's only for the books of yours .. This isn't how life is. "

The women came into the room..

Ag, she looked a farmer..post her gardening routine..there was no finishing to her..a bird perched on a tree and that is how she had to be..

Lil, a semi torn shirt she loved..and something of a skirt.. Glasses.. And she was your college professor..

"wassup" she asked the aunt..

A shrug was wat she got for an answer..

Ag smiled and waved it off.."humans!!" she sighed

I broke into hysterically laughter ..

my mirrors.. well they are..




Me

Saturday, 9 August 2014

Note 38 : Fathers day notes

They are all that is to life... Life support more like..

The road I travel, the middle ground...
with green fields on one end..sun blazing..the road, hence, shining..

That's where they are..my girls

The other end, a bottomless pit that this world is . - We'll not talk about it today..

Two little cubs, lionesses some days and floating doves on others..As summer breeze and warmth in snow..

Calling me paapaa..Joe.. Daddy !! The protective wall..the invisible blanket..selfless love..

Do you need walls in an empty house, the blanket undefined without those who cuddle beneath it.. Love..just a word unless reciprocated..

I am what my girls define me to be.. Younger in their mischiefs ..older in covering them..

So, on fathers day, it's them I'm thankin.. It's them am asking to celebrate. Because what is a mind without thots, and thots they are..pretty little dancing fairy frock thots.




Hdk 

Friday, 1 August 2014

Note 37 : At the beach


Sand – the moist one was her favorite – with the waves lashing – the breeze as gentle as cotton – the ocean singing a song of old days – the birds adding notes to the ballad – the performing nature in its element. As the kids and me- enjoy the show - resting on a Saturday evening.

Ag, workmanish, with the beach kit, builds her castles – a bridge over the lost stream which strayed away from the mother ocean.

Meticulously, I see her add tower after tower – one has a minaret – the other is a rigid column, the third one looks like a cone ( I dare not ask – lest it be something else and I have my eyesight and my knowledge on structures doubted) . They should let kids design buildings – screw them learned architects.
Learning make you lose the originality

She added the a patch for the garden – the end result was spectacular – a child`s imagination is the most beautiful thing in the universe. The complete picture was not pleasing to the eye, however, when you looked at the parts you would see the beauty of it –in the detail - she had built a horse stable, dad`s reading room, Lily`s badminton area – her garden patch of course – mavshi`s quarters – every little detail so diligently crafted.

And the work was still in progress…

On the other side – Lil had made the fin & tail of the mermaid in the sand – around her legs to her stomach – as she entered her design – she did look like one – the cutest of them all. Her arms and upper body human and followed by the sand fins and the tail.

“and I would swim and swim and swim and swim.. “ she sang.

On the beach, I had a castle with horses and a mermaid for a daughter – what more is there to life – I wonder..




The breeze grew stronger as earth it seems gulped the sun down and twilight followed.

Hdk